antonia

Antonia has been mentioned a couple of times in my last blogs, but since I have about 50 visitors/day I guess 90% have no idea who she is, so I am gona try to explain.
I met Toni while playing Dota with her and her brothers, we had some awesome games and started to play alot together. We were using voicechat (Skype) to communicate while we played and after some time we started to talk even when we didnt play.
As many probably have noticed already, I'm pretty good at just sit and talk about nothing and everything to get to know a person - only if I'm interested in getting to know him/her though, and that I was. We spent hours talking about life, feelings, school, dreams, problems and games everyday.

She made me feel special, she talked about things you usually dont talk to strangers about, I really felt like she trusted me. Naturally I felt like I could really trust her, and we kept talking and talking and got to know eachother better and better.
At some point, after many days and nights talking to her, I realised that I had fallen inlove with her, we decided to meet.
I have alot of hopes about our meeting, which will be the 26th December if nothing bad happens, and I am very much looking forward to see if things work out or if it just wont click, anything can happen and we cant really control it, just live with it.
I havent felt lonely for aslong as I can remember, but now I do.. I didnt talk to her last night and now she's sleeping, her absence is digging a hole in me and I feel that she is missed.

I want to see Antonia soon, I want to look into her eyes and feel that this is exactly what I want.
When I meet her I want her to be as happy to see me as I'm happy to see her, and I really think she will!
Argh, I want her to feel special, but when some girls read this they will probably feel like I said exact the same thing about them earlier :P Oh well, Holland girls are hard to compete with, but Antonia you'r doing very well :)
I want to be with you and just look into your eyes..

ps. Antonia is extremly sexy (and shes "mine"!).



summary

Since I started to play Tibia again I have spent alot of time with that and I have alot of fun playing again. Much less Dota, Starcraft and school though.
I'm without money, its not the first time though and I'm far from starving to death, but today it is KOOKIES BIRTHDAY! Happy birthday! fyrk0 and I are gona go to her after I slept (its 8am atm) and I hope she will be happy to have me there even if I dont have a present ^^;



And Ias is afk forever! -_-;;

Some shit has been going on the last couple of days that makes me want to just fastforward my life a week or two, but I'll manage, afterall I am J0k3 teh wtfpwnzorer! - and I have the greatest friends.

Though it feels like something is missing.. Someone is a better word I guess.. Ias wake up!