accepted





YES!!!!!!!!!!
The last few weeks I've been feeling like all I do everyday is wait for life to move on.. I feel like I have wasted an enormous amount of time in my life doing nothing, and to be frank im really sick of it. Its not like I'm hating my life or that I feel like a failiure or anything like that, not at all. Im just really eager to move on, I want to study, learn things that interests me, travel around the world and start a family!

I've known now for about a year what I want to do in my life (well, I think I know what I want to do :P Its not the first time I've "known"), I really want to be a psychiatrist at a school. I have previously studied Computer Game Development and Computer Networking at the University in Västerås, but I was never even close to as excited as I am now to start studying. I want to work with people, thats something I really learned when I was working at the kindergarten in Germany, I really love to sit at the PC at home and play etc, but its nothing I want to work with. I want to help young people.. In todays society so many kids are suffering, I am a very understanding person and I'm able to see things from other peoples point of view (- aslong as they are not religious :P) and I also love to help. Its the perfect job for me, and to study human behaviour itself is just awesome. Antonia and I always analyze people, whether its some friends partner or a character in a show.

Its really gona be great to start school again, I'm starting the 18th of January, so I still have quite abit of SEMESTER to enjoy :) I have never really studied alone though, for aslong as I can remember I've (almost) always enjoyed going to school. When I was in junior and junior-high I always had tons of fun in school, borrowing NES games (Mega Man 3, oh yeah!) from classmates or hanging out with friends after school drawing dinosaurs :D
At senior compulsory school, videogaming and computerplaying was a huge part of my life, but I always did well in school aswell. I was one of the best in the class at many subjects, I also enjoyed school - even if the stuff we were supposed to learn wasnt interesting at all, I've always had great friends by my side. Since I always paid attention in class, I never really had to do any homework either, the first eleven years of school, I never had to make an effort to pass or do well.
When I started upper secondary school (science & math), I knew some of my classmates already, and we ended up having the most amazing group of people imaginable! I've always had great people around me in school, so it was never really a drag to go there except when we moved far away so I had to take the train to school all the time (and all the waiting that comes with it).
When I started university (Computer Game Development), I knew no one - but during the first week, I noticed that an old classmate of mine also were there and I made some amazing(!!) new friends!
Now, my performance in school was faaaaaaaaar worse however, but that was because of numerous reasons. I had a really great time though!

I am now once again diving into this, alone, but I am very excited!

antonia and sfi

Antonia is about to surpass me in swedish, she is already done with SFI (Swedish for imigrants) and is starting higher level studies soon! I am so proud of her, she learns so damn fast! Its really impressive :) It also makes her feel way more comfortable here, which is so nice to see. Whenever we meet my mother or sister (who doesnt like to speak english), things are much easier now and she doesnt feel weird.
I love Antonia SO FUCKING MUCH! She is the perfect woman for me, really, its crazy how great she makes me feel! We are a really good match :)

ias

Lol found a picture from 2007 I think, when we played Quake 3 on the 25min trainride to Västerås ^^



This amazing guy did a beautiful thing the other day.. It was a few days ago, I was feeling kind of blue because everyone were away at school/work while I was sitting at home just waiting for time to pass.
He told me to grab my phone and go out for a walk, so I did - he called.
For those who doesnt know, Ias is my cousin and one of the people I love and care about most - He has always been there for me the last few years, we have been going through alot together and shared countless amount of amazing hours together. He is the one I know I can always depend on - he is really an amazing guy.
Anyway - Since I moved back to Sweden I've not really spent much time with him, unfortunately, but to walk around and talk to him about everything and nothing really felt great. Thank you.

lucia

This weekend is gona be great! On friday, Antonia and I are going to my old highschool (at 9AM ;/) to watch a Lucia celebration-thingy (Lucia-tåg). Its a tradition in sweden but not in germany so she's never seen one. I wanted to show her, because it can be really beautiful.



After that, we will go to Ramnäs and spend some time with my sister, we will go to Elias kindergarten and watch their Luciatåg aswell :D Then we'll drive to Johan & Madde and spend the rest of the day there! Amazing day!!

Then on saturday, we are having Ias and Linn over for dinner, awesome weekend ftw!!
And on sunday I guess there will be some MASS PSR farming with the lohikärme's :)

random outbursts

- We saw Lucky Number Slevin, really good movie!
- Went on a really fun hunt the other day together with BR Robocop! Medusae & Serpent spawns madness!
- Had an amazing time last night playing Starcraft with Jacke, moar of that plz!
- I got a letter from Sören, a kid from the kindergarten in germany, real sweet.
- The about.php is really outdated ;/
- DRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEAMRAGE is fun to play with! (I wish his brothers had more time to join us!!)
- Got an email from a HoN-forum guy, he wanted to play with us, wee! He's cool.