4 years old now!



Yesterday was my nephew Elias birthday! I hope it was a really nice day and I am so much looking forward to meet him again :) He got a box of bananas and he loved it, lol! He is so big now, a big boy! Love him.

Another födelsedagsbarn is Sander! Gz @ 20 mate! :)

mormor

My grandmother was also there. She is very old now and shes losing it.. Her memory is really really bad nowadays and even though she has been looking after Elias alot during the years, she couldnt remember his name yesterday.. She actually thought they were celebrating a baptism (even though she was at his baptism already).. Some people find it funny.. I dunno.. Its so hard...



I cried last night and talked to Antonia about it, I explained it to her that I dont have a close relationship to my grandmother at all and that doesnt really bother me either, but I just think it must be sooo hard for my mom to go through all this.. When I put myself in her situation, it just kills me...

Imagine that your own mother dont recognize your kids or grandkids after years of spending time with them, imagine how hard that must be... And to be around others who have no short term memory can be very frustrating and annoying, I have no clue how those things works but I can also imagine that my grandmother very often feel like people get annoyed at her, lose their temper or get angry with her, and she has no clue why!

Imagine you get some crazy bad news, someone died, you get devestated like fuck. Imagine to tell someone that and then three minutes later they have no idea about it...
Also, imagine that someone came up to you later and said it was a missunderstanding, the extreme sadness that you felt earlier will hang on, even though whatever made you sad have been cleared up, not as sad ofcourse but emotions tend to stick around for a while.. I wonder how that works when you have no memory.. If someone yells at me or tell me something that makes me sad, will I still feel sad then after I forgot it?

I just hope my mom is okay now.. And I hope it wont pass down to her because it would hurt me so much to see my mom like that..

I dunno.. I dont really feel like writing anything else right now, just wanted to let this out.. I've had a really good time lately actually.. Spent some great time with JT, Katrin, Jasmin & Justin.. They are great people really.. I'll definitely miss them alot when I live in Sweden..

Antonia is really sick.. We've been to the hospital and shit.. Im sick too but its not that bad....
Anyway... I dunno.. I love you all and I hope you will all have a nice weekend. Jacke owns because he plays SC with me all the time :P Dota ppl also. Toni owns the most though!



Dunno wanted to write about alot of stuff but meh dont feel like it anymore..

riddle

The length of rectangle S is 20 percent longer than the length of rectangle R, and the width of rectangle S is 20 percent shorter than the width of rectangle R. The area of rectangle S is:

A. 20% greater than the area of rectangle R
B. 4% greater than the area of rectangle R
C. equal to the area of rectangle R
D. 4% less than the area of rectangle R
E. 20% less than the area of rectangle R